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[21 Jan 2003|10:18pm] |
J'adore my first day of college.
J'adore getting out early.
J'adore that mom is paying me back for books i bought.
J'adore Ashes to Ashes.
J'adore my bracelet I scammed someone into buying the other day.
J'adore you coming to my house after your work today.
J'adore me missing my night job to do stuff i've done all weekend but can't get enough of.
J'adore the blender and pewterware being bought.
J'adore Ron and Jennifer.
J'adore our new diet. ((not))
I miss Sarah and Sabyn.
I start my new job tomorrow.
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[19 Jan 2003|02:22pm] |
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[16 Jan 2003|12:05pm] |
I can't remember the last time I was this happy.
This week has been complete giddyness, and I don't know why exactly.
Something's gotta fuck it up soon.
I got the job today
And, I start off more than minimum wage
and it's closer to where we're moving to
I have never EVER had luck with finding a job that fast. 3 days time. And I still have my main one that uh, I have to find someway to tell her today that I'm leaving.
And for leaving on good terms sake, I'll remind her she has my number if she ever wants me to come back and sub.
But she'll probably be too pissed for that.
The main thing that's been holding me back is the set of twins. And oddly enough, their mother asked me if I wanted to start occasionally babysitting them, and invited me to their birthday party.
I still work the church nursery
and the catering lady keeps calling, but I just don't want to give up Saturday nights anymore, since thats when I see my baby.
I get to spend the night tomorrow.
Yay =)
My parents and I have got along great this week
I'm not sure what's up with that
But it's very odd
It's kinda like old times though, so for that I will not complain.
I start school Tuesday
I don't know what that means.
We've been hanging out with Dalton and Angel and played putt putt the other weekend
That was very cool.
Midnight movies are back on the weekends
I wish they had them just one night though
Because that way everyone would go at the same time
the times we've gone, the cool people like Juliet and such have not been present
I got high the last time we went
And I had the pleasure of meeting Greg.
Oh, Juliet and Austin and me to a movie
Doesn't that sound fun?
Juliet you must give us your number
I mean we sometimes see you, like at Target that time
But the three of us love movies
and always say we're going to hang out
and maybe some good ones have come out
So, let's go!
I think I'm drowning in my own snot
This is gross.
Oh, went to Goodwill the other day
and I gots me some dinosaurs
Roaaaaaaaar
While someone got him a little head.
Ahaha
There's so many other things, but the privacy of me own thoughts they rest.
And play back in my mind.
And make me happy.
And make me sound like a dumbass.
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[14 Jan 2003|05:06pm] |
Decided today to look for a new job.
Had today off.
Took advantage, went to find new job.
One of the applications was to School Aids
Had put one in over the summer also, but the Montessori job came up, so when School Aids called, I had to decline.
So after putting one in today around noon
I was off on my way to put one in at Leaps and Bounds, because while at the hospital today Ms. Darla highly recommended me working there with her
Well while I was gone, the head manager of School Aids called and said she was very impressed with my application and the fact that I'm starting school next week in the way of becoming a teacher.
And my mom somewhat explained to her how I love working with kids, but basically the situation I am in now with my boss is crap.
It's just kinda funny because the cashiers there told me they weren't hiring.
So she wants to hire me. And talk to me. Thursday. At 11. :)
I think I've been happy lately
And the past 2 weekends have been nothing but wonderful
and he's bringing me to the circus Saturday!!
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[07 Jan 2003|09:41pm] |
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you know what really fucking annoys me
a billboard that reads: "Even though it's your fault you were drunk, it's his fault you were raped."
I've always had a problem with how they always make it out to be only the guy's fault.
Since when do the chicks not lead the guys on or whatever?
Or guy and guy situations?
Riiiiiight.
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[01 Jan 2003|11:35pm] |
yOuseemesmile: I NEED A BOOKSACK!!!!!
yOuseemesmile: i start school soon
DDud87: lol
DDud87: the 21st
DDud87: ?
yOuseemesmile: yeah
yOuseemesmile: its atues?
yOuseemesmile: when you have to pee in class at school do you have to ask , or can you just leave?
DDud87: yeah
DDud87: that is stupid
yOuseemesmile: you can just leave?
yOuseemesmile: i worry abou t these kinds of things sonny boyyy
DDud87: u just need to worry about doin good
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[28 Dec 2002|01:10am] |
perfectsevens (1:09:07 AM): you should get austin to teach you and then all three of us could play
that is one of the coolest things i've heard all day.
well besides the fact that tonight i saw bowling 4 columbine
that was so so so good
everyone should like, go hear manson preach.
:)
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[26 Dec 2002|08:23pm] |
1) Last dream: It was the middle of January and I was finally starting college. But then I was still having to remain a year at highschool at the same time. And I got in all kinds of trouble for not having on my uniform. And there were toilets in all the classrooms now. That was the cool part.
2) Last car ride: I went in my pjs earlier to locate a certain place. Tis a secret:)
3) Last kiss: lastnight
4) Last good cry: I almost cried when I got one of my gifts yesterday:)
5) Last Missing Library Book: I havent been to the library in ages. I still have my orange card with my child printed signature.
6) Last movie seen: Lastnight I watched Ice Age with Austin and his family.
7) Last Book Read: still reading The Accident
8) Last cuss word uttered: Shit
9) Last beverage drank: Right now I'm attempting to drink hot chocolate. But I think I burned it.
10) Last Food consumed: Oatmeal pie but I dunno what the hell it said.
12) Last phone call: Austin or Marcie
13) Last TV show watched: dont know
14) Last Item Bought: Gas
15) Last time showered: I took a hot bath a few hours ago
16) Last shoes worn: I've been barefoot all day
17) Last CD played: Earlier my playlist in my room was nothign but various Bright Eyes songs.
18) Last downloaded: dunno
19) Last annoyance: falling off the ladder and stepping on a thumbtack.
20) Last disappointment: thinking Daniel may be gone for good again.
21) Last soda drank: Vanilla Coke
22) Last thing written: I told Lindsey bye and to have mucho fun tonight with chad ;)
23) Last key used: to start my car. we never lock our house.
24) Last word(s) spoken: Shit (thanks jasmine for implanting that word in my head. heyyyyy jasmine needs a livejournal.)
25) Last trip to the bathroom: I pee like every 5 minutes.
26) Last sleep: I woke up around 2 something.
27) Last IM: there's some now but I'm not talking.
28) Last sexual fantasy: hehehehe
29) Last orgasm: hehehee
30) Last weird encounter: Yesterday as I was leaving my house Katie passed by and honked at me. I thought she lived in Ruston.
31) Last Store Shopped at: The gas station for the purchase of gas and dutch chocolate milk. I just had to treat myself..it was christmas:)
32) Last ice cream eat ten: Dylans birthday.
33) Last time amused: I was amused I finally took the tv and lite brite out of the backseat of my car that's been there for months.
34) Last time wanting to die: dunno
35) Last time in love: present.
36) Last time hugged: lastnight
37) Last time scolded: yesterday when my mom made me cry on christmas.
38) Last time resentful: i dunno
39) Last chair sat in: this one.
40) Last lipstick used: i dont know what you call what i wear sometimes.
41) Last underwear worn: right now they are pretty blue see through ooo oooh;)
42) Last bra worn: not today that's for sure.
43) Last shirt worn: my pajama shirt
44) Last class attended: work seminar.
45) Last Final taken: dunno
46) Last time dancing: sometimes we "dance" in the kitchen
47) Last poster looked at: spongebob
48) Last concert attended: voodoo fest if that counts
49) Last web page visited: i was looking for a hotel.
last person
[ you touched ) I hit my lil brother on the head earlier.
[ you talked to ] Lindsey.
[ you hugged ] Austin
[ you instant messaged ] Kyle just Imed me.
[ you yelled at ] my mom
[ you kissed ] Austin
favorite
[ food ] ketchup or peanuts
[ drink ] everything
[ color ] dont have one
[ album ] bright eyes-lifted
[ shoes ] my black and white runnin shoes or my black maryjanes
[ candy ] gummie bears
[ animal ] dinosaur
[ TV show ] king of queens
[ movie ] lot of them
[ dance ] ...
[ song ] dont have one
[ vegetable ] brocolli
[ fruit ] lemons
[ cartoon ] strawberry shortcake.
are you
[ understanding ] i guess
[ open-minded ] i guess
[ arrogant ] i hope not
[ insecure ] sometimes
[ interesting ] everyone thinks im weird but whyyyy
[ random ] always
[ hungry ] always
[ friendly ] yes even to ms allison
[ smart ] next month will be the determining answer to that.
[ moody ] "you just get cranky when youre tired" austin was correct.
[ childish ] forever
[ independent ] yes
[ hard working ] only at work
[ organized ] hardly ever
[ healthy ] no
[ shy ] sometimes
[ difficult ] complicated
[ attractive ] whatever
[ bored easily ] yeah
[ messy ] im like the messiest eater
[ thirsty ] always
[ responsible hehehe
[ obsessed ] hehehe
[ angry ] nope
[ sad ] nopes
[ happy ] yes
[ hyper ] not right now
[ trusting ] if i dont have reason to be otherwise
[ talkative ] yeah
[ legal ] yes
who do you want to
[ kill ] cant think of anyone
[ get really wasted with ] i just want to get really wasted. i stil have some of my wine left...
[ tickle ] hehee he kills me
[ kiss ] no one
[ look like ] um, i dont plan on getting plastic surgery or anything
[ talk to offline ] no one
[ talk to online ] Kyle and I are still talking. About peekshures
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[26 Dec 2002|07:08pm] |
now would if you could just drive your car inside your house to clean it out?
it's just an idea...
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[25 Dec 2002|08:53pm] |
I got diamonds today
My baby gave me a necklace
A necklace with a heart of diamonds
A christmas that was merry and cozy.
http://www.suicidegirls.com is hot
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[24 Dec 2002|10:28pm] |
me and dylan (moo-poo)
me and austin
goober. aint he cute?
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[22 Dec 2002|02:03am] |
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the kite is taking us to a pretty place
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[18 Dec 2002|08:45pm] |
no i will not fucking miss seeing my boyfriend tomorrow that asked me to lunch who i haven't seen in a lil while just so i can fucking come in work early on my day off so you can go christmas shopping. no matter how much you begged and argued it with me today.
bitch
and every time they do call me to come in, i do.
but sorries.
today she made jasmine stay with our babies
and put me in a room by myself with 14 2 year olds
and had the audacity to complain that i wasn't "teaching" them.
i was trying my best.
sorry.
and sorry that i don't fucking mop the floor in the bathroom right when you ask me just so you can put on your fucking makeup in a clean place. i was changing one of the babies' diapers.
i'm not going to complain that the only time i sat over the span of the 12 hour day was when i teed on the toilet
but geez
could you for once get up off your lazy ass instead of demanding we meet YOUR needs and not the childrens'?
ive had it up to here.
all of today did it
jasmine and i are putting our 2 weeks notice in at the first of the year
we thought this out together for like an hour on the phone tonight.
austin knows i'm not exaggerating.
she's physchotic.
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[17 Dec 2002|10:01pm] |
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happy birthday dylan!!
my nephew turned 3 today
my he has grown-
i was a bad aunt tonight and missed almost all his party
even though i just didnt show up for my night job tongiht
but yeah i asked to leave work a few minutes before 6
hurried from denham back home
after sitting in traffic 15 minutes i turn around to go another way
then traffic is backed up at the other light too cause of another wreck
but i finally got here:)
and the santa clause fire truck was just pulling on our street so i got to take him outside to see it
cept i made him cry on his birthday :(
austin-he loved loved loved the trucks we got him
that was the only toy he wanted to play with
and he said he wanted to go to your house:(
you'll have to watch the tape of his partyyyy
i'm so sick of seeing bob the builder stuff
i finished all christmas shopping today and then tonight
yay
at target tonight the lady in front of me was complaining about how pricey teacher gifts can get
and there i am in my work uniform and i told her i worked at the preschool
hehe
the cashier was like damn you all
:)
austin and jasmine finally met friday night
made me so happy
monroe was fun this weekend
the hot chick was a stupid movie
need to finish watching the rest of vulgar
tis a very, very sad movie
my oldest brother is in the woods in the backyard shooting baby deer
he needs to be shot.
time to wrap presents..
a lil more holiday cheer..
so on tuesdays and thursdays i'm not supposed to go to work til 3 right..
well at 11 my mom and i were on the interstate headed to the mall
my cell phone rings
it's my boss
how she got the number i dunt have a clue
but she asked if i could come in at 12
i explained to her why i coudlnt
well i get to work today and they were all like yeah you know why she needed to leave at 12
to go christmas shopping.
that christmas tree shoulda went kaboom:)
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[12 Dec 2002|10:31pm] |
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TOMORROW I am in charge at work
only me and another worker will be there
I get to cook and everything
everyone should be very afraid
or very very impressed
Oh oh Ron and I have reunited!!
He invited me on a date with him and Jennifer next week
Hmmmm
If only yall go after I get off work
I bought a jacket tonight
I already hate it
Bye bye jacket.
I really really really like this song.
Daniel's going to sing it at my wedding.
If I ever get married.
If.
I don't get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here
And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know
That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest
What if I'd been born fifty years before you
In a house on a street where you lived?
Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?
And in a white sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize
And I know
That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest
I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you
Next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties
And one day passed away in his sleep
And his wife; she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away
I'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belong
That I know
That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest
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aww i had to give in and go the doctor
i havent been to the doctor in years
but least im not sick!
i have severe chemical burns in my mouth.
you can see them if i shine a flashlight in my mouth
it's so prettie.
how the hell ever was i capable of kissing?
today i can't even eat or swallow or talk.
after a week, pine sol is the devil.
devil in the apple juice dress
gimme my prescription gargling stuff.
nowwwwwwwww
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[10 Dec 2002|12:03am] |
So tonight Austin and I picked up Daniel cause we were going out to eat
Went to Bennigans
Had some laughs
and those plants, I wanted to steal the damn plates and my saucer and everything that matched
how lucky was i
afterwards went to Daniel's abandoned house that we partied at almost every night this summer
drank
then we noticed some of the windows were broken out
unlocked the door, went in
with only the illumination of a lighter
pretty weird stuff
i just knew there was someone dead in the bathtub
dont think there was though
we made a fire outside
i can't remember the last time i did something on a Monday night
This was cool
i've left notes everywheres in the kitchen telling my mom to not answer the phone, just knowing knowing knowing that they are going to call me in to come work at 7 rather than 3.
i'm going to pass out to rain and happiness.
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[09 Dec 2002|01:21pm] |
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I so easily forgot what it was like not to work
I didn't go today, what would have been an all day thing
Instead I chose to be me.
I guess it was time to be me
in the sense that I can't hide my real feelings that the constant busyness of my jobs keep me away from- keeping my thoughts consumed with work. Even though I love that. And just that.
Like..Christmas is coming up
I love giving people things
I find it entertainingly fun
But then with Christmas another year will begin after
I don't know about new years eve
thats still a ways away
I know Jasmine's having a big something
who knows
A new year, I don't want it to entirely be new...there's some things I wishnt want to change for the world
Then change is coming, like I'll finally begin school
In that holds the possibility of making new friends
and although I'm not at all motivated yet, I know I'm going to have to really study
I will have my Tuesdays and Thursday job free less, and I'm happy about that.
But I'm scared.
I really want to move out, I really do
I know it's going to require alot of money but I think we can do it-
I just think we're going to have to wait til the piggy bank eats a lil more goodies
And when my name on the waiting list is first in line.
Oh that will be the day
for it will be grand.
My dreams are constantly on rollercoasters of strangeness
I owe you tons of smiles.
Daniel is back for a while
He wants to do something tonight
He's been instant messaging me like crazy
I think it'll be nice
This Friday night my babies are going to be in the montessory school's christmas program
I hope they don't all poo while they are on stage-
All in favor of the word poo being erased from Austin's vocabulary...say I.
It's been a week since I drank the pine sol...
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